Sunday, April 19, 2009

The biggest move of my life, again....


The first biggest move I made was when I moved to Brisbane. I am now about to make yet another big move.. Back to Sweden. I am counting down the time that I have left here, but I am stressing out.. Will I get a job in Sweden? Should I go back to studying? I have one month left at my job, it feels good.. But I will miss my friends wedding, and I will miss wifey when she comes to visit Brisbane... The winter in Australia is on its way, I am so glad that I will miss most of it. Can't wait until I sit at medborgarplatsen in Stockholm, drinking a beer and having a big catch up with my friends.. I want to leave now!!!!! It will be hard to leave Walid one more time, but when he comes back to Sweden, we will start our new journey together.. I have some things that I have to do before I go back.. I want to see the corall reeves and I want to swim with seals and dolphins (yes again!!!). I hope I get to do those things before I leave.. I am posting a photo off me and the dolphins so you can understand why I want to do that again.. xoxo

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Moving back

The date has changed.. Leaving in june.. It will be so nice to finally have the feeling of coming back to sweden and not have to go back to Australia.. It's just kinda sad that one of my closest friends that I had here is coming back to visit from singapore.. She is coming after I have left. It's harder then I thought to move back home. I still made a life for myself here and I have a few friends that I hope to stay in contact with. Btu leaving them is sad and to think that I expected it to be easy.. I have to start applying for jobs in Sweden and also start packing, its less than two months away now before I leave Australia. My wonderful boyfriend is coming back as well but not until september... I will miss this place, but I know that I have all of my family and friends to come back to. It makes it a bit easier I think.. I would never want to build up a life in Brisbane as it is to far away from home.. But who knows? Maybe I will come back sometime, and maybe I will feel differently once I'm finally home.. But I do know now that I need to go home. Even if it means that I will come back someday.....

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I'm coming home :)

I haven't written in a while.. Always say that I am going to be better at this but it never happens.. Anyways, whats new? I am moving back to Sweden in July, can't wait. I miss everything and everyone at home so much.. Lived in Australia for almost 4,5 yrs now. So I have started to plan my way home. Need to pack and send a few things home. I have collected so much s**t during my time here..

Have to get back to cooking now.. Will write more soon.

xoxo

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Migrane.....

The whole day yesterday I walked around with a headache. It got worse during the evening up to a point where I had to go to bed and switch all the lights off.. Today I was supposed to go to work and help out with the delivery and to have a meeting. But when I woke up with a less severe headache, I couldn't. Feel so bad for the people at work (except for one person). I wish that you could just take a pill and it will be fine.. I took some paracetamol today and I feel much better. But I can't do anything because every time I stand up it feels like someone is jumping on my head... Have to rest now.. I hate migraines......

Saturday, February 7, 2009

The cops in Rosengard, Sweden



I have been following the articles about the cops in Rosengard who apparently called someone for "nigger" and "monkey". It is of course, and never should be, acceptable. These police officers should be punished for saying those things to people. However, in saying that, a journalist is trying to say that the Swedish government is now painting the picture saying that Muslims are the ones to look out for. This is bull****. Its not about the religion. In some parts of Sweden there are people who has been living there for over 20 years. Some of them have integrated very well into the Swedish society. But you also have the people who cannot speak a word swedish even though they have lived there for such a long time. It is embarrassing to say that they are all Muslims (which isn't true). They come from all over the world and have different religions etc.

The government has been doing a lot of mistakes from the beginning when they accepted people into Sweden. Instead of spreading people around Sweden, they put everyone with the same language together into a so called "million project". The government did this with good intentions. They believed that these people might succeed better if they have someone from "home" who understands what they have been through and who can give them some support. But the whole thing backfired in their face. It is understandable that they don't learn Swedish since they are surrounded with people from their own country speaking their language. In saying that, people have to have their own will. It is not hard to get an education in Sweden, or to do a course where you can learn Swedish (it is free as well). And when you then hear people saying "I hate Sweden, it is such a shit country. My country is so much better..." etc., its no wonder that Swedish people get tired of it. Yes, our government did a lot of mistakes during that time, but there are still non-Swedish people who have succeeded in their integration, because they wanted to integrate. They wanted to build a future for themselves. And they are very happy that they could come to Sweden when their own country had problems. It is also not right to say that it is racist for the schools to sing the swedish national anthem on graduations or on the constitution day. If I were to put up a Swedish flag on my balcony, I would be called a racist from a lot of people. Am I a racist because I love my own home country and I want to show it?

I have to say, Sweden has its own problems and everything is not perfect. But the things that matter are free in Sweden. Education, medical care and dental care (up to the year you turn 19) is free. How many countries can say that they have this? And also, when sweden accept refugees, they (90% of the time) give them somewhere to stay, they pay their bills, make sure they have food etc. How can you bullshit and back stab a country doing this? I am not saying that Sweden is perfect, long way from it.

What I am trying to say is that you can't say to Swedish people how much you hate their country, or how bad the swedish people are treating you if you don't try to help yourselves. And to have kids with foreign backgrounds throwing rocks at the police, putting things on fire etc., the police will get frustrated enough to say idiotic things. But to stop this madness Swedish people and non-Swedish people have to come together united in order to stop the idiots who are making hardworking people pushed along to the same side. It's not just the Swedish people who are getting hurt by this, it is also the people who came to Sweden for better lives, who worked hard to integrate, that are getting hurt by this.. I will finish this discussion with the Swedish national anthem (for you who don't understand, I'm sorry).

Du gamla, Du fria, Du fjällhöga nord
Du tysta, Du glädjerika sköna!
Jag hälsar Dig, vänaste land uppå jord,
Din sol, Din himmel, Dina ängder gröna.
Din sol, Din himmel, Dina ängder gröna.

Du tronar på minnen från fornstora dar,
då ärat Ditt namn flög över jorden.
Jag vet att Du är och Du blir vad du var.
Ja, jag vill leva jag vill dö i Norden.
Ja, jag vill leva jag vill dö i Norden.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

An update of my life in brisvegas

SO I haven't exactly been the best at blogging.. I haven't written anything for a while. Let me give you an update.. I have finished the whole twilight saga (it was so good). I have applied to award school, which is a 16 week course for creatives (hopefully I will get in). I am working less now because the new girl has started (she is really nice but they gave her my hours). And in about 10 days I'm leaving for sydney to meet one of my closest friends, can't wait to see someone from home..

It is funny how life can change paths so quickly. One month ago I was working fulltime and was wondering what my next move will be. I think I got a little bit inspired by Obamas speach "yes, we can". So yes I can become anything I want. If I fight and do everything in my power to get where I want to be, I will get there. It might take some time, but better late than never.

Work is the same.. I am so tired of the diva at work that I wish someone would just make him quit the job. He has been so rude to me for the last couple of days (and to others) that I went ballistic on his as. And then he has the nerve to threaten me that he will call the owner and see what he has to say about things. So I told him " yeah, run back to daddy like you always do". Him: "Zanna, mark my words!!!!!!". IDIOT.... He did tell the owner about our little disagreement, but he twisted the story so that he wouldn't look bad.. He has gone in over his head. I do care if they would fire me, but if that happends, I am taking him down with me.. I am not giving this up without a fight.. And I know that everyone at work hates him and wishes him the worst in life, but I am not sure if they will stand next to me in this fight. I have such a big mouth that I will probably only make it worse for myself. But whatever happens, I will stand my ground and not let him kill my pride.

I have to get myself ready now for work. But this is going to be a good day because Gaylord Focker (my nickname for the gay diva idiot) is not working..

I promise it won't take so long for me to write again.. Until then I will leave you with these words " YES, WE CAN"